The first one really hit home for me. The second helped me understand myself a bit better. It’s so bizarre to get so far in your life having always felt ‘wrong’ or ‘broken’ only to finally discover that there is nothing actually wrong with you, other than that you are wired differently and have been going against your natural instincts and behaviours your entire life. But I do honestly feel that every day is a knew opportunity to start again, armed with knowledge and experience, I can now choose my next steps better.
Any other diagnosed AuDHD’ers out there? Sometimes I like in a contradiction in terms! I find the most simple tasks overwhelming. Like brushing my teeth or remembering to take my medicine everyday, I panic if I have to make a work phone call, think everyone hates me & that I’ve never done enough, even though, I’m usually the one who does the most! Imposter syndrome! Especially when I’ve achieved something great. I’ve had clean clothes on my bedroom chair for (I’m embarrassed to say,) I can’t boil an egg to save my life but can bake really delicious and complicated dishes (without following a recipe.) Routine suffocates me but without it I spiral. Sometimes I feel stuck and let the dishes pile, berating myself for my inability to move and other days, I move mountains. Nothing in between. I know when people are lying, I can read body language. I don’t like inauthentic people. I panic about have to go out and socialize but once I’m out, you can not get me back home. Then I need a week to recuperate! Maybe that’s why I love animals so much! 😂😭 Anyone else relate?
This is a chill space. A combo of coffee shop, library, chill after hours spot. Come on in, grab a book or something to drink or both. Find a comfy chair and have a conversation.